in between

today is the day they waited

today is the day they longed

weeped unceasingly

wondered

probably doubted

sat together in silence

in awe

maybe in fear

appalled at Him

his image burned in their minds eye from the night before

his appearance was so disfigured, beyond that of any man

and his form marred beyond human likeness

not just any man

but their greatest friend

not any friend

but the friend who was God and became man

a man that became a brother, a father,  and a lover to humanity

today they waited

today they longed

to see him raised

lifted up and highly exalted

they knew it was the Lord's will to crush him

and cause him to suffer

they knew he was crushed for their iniquities

the punishment that brought them peace was upon him

and by his wombs they were healed

but today,

today they waited in darkness and unfathomable sadness

to see the promise of yesterday come to fruition tomorrow morn

can you imagine the pain of waiting they must have experienced?

...if yesterday we died with Christ, then today we were buried with him.

today is the day of longing, of deep anticipation

yesterday i wanted to strive to feel the weight of His death, of my death

the death of me, of my sin, of my emptiness, of my unworthiness, of my loneliness

today i want to experience the longing of our rebirth, of new life

the waiting

the wondering

the in between

the pain of not knowing, but somehow believing

today, i ask for my faith to increase